10 weeks and counting

Well, time flies is what they say. We have under 10 weeks to go before we get to see our sweet little baby. When other people ask how much time we have left, it always seems they look surprised. Some of them think 10 weeks is quite a while and others just look at me as if I am far too large to still have 10 weeks left! Either way, 10 weeks seems like it will come in the blink of an eye. I am anxious, nervous, impatient...the list can go on and on. I am anxious because I really am very curious to see what our little baby is going to look like. Will he or she have dark hair, what color eyes, you get the drift? On the other hand though, I am getting very nervous. I am nervous about the labor and delivery. I love it when I tell people I am nervous they just seem to sweep it under the run as if its silly to be nervous that a human that weighs in at about 7 lbs is going to come out of my body through such a small place (if all goes well and I don't need a csection). Drugs seem to be the best answer or advice from everyone. The problem is that I am deathly afraid of needles and can't imagine getting an epidural in my spine! Nightmares, that's what the whole thing causes me when I think of the epidural. Who knows, I may walk in begging for it but until then, I am quite nervous. I am also nervous that we will be bringing home a tiny little baby that will be completely dependent on us and on top of that, one that can't talk! I have had plenty of time over the last 7 and a half months to consider what I want to teach the baby and ways that I will spend my time with the baby but at the end of the day, I wonder how much of what I think will happen will really happen. Too many stories, I suppose, from everyone that already has a child or children. Everyone has a story to add and it is never without that famous line..."just wait and see". Anyhow, I know we will do the best we can but I am still nervous, it's in my nature. Hopefully, the baby will be more like his/her father and won't inherit my inability to not worry!